wander war, wonderwall

do,

what makes me less grouchy,

undo what makes the me mean,

inappropriate,

less deserving,

more annoying,

less forgiving,

more allowing,

lest,

compelling and meek.

the power of the meek.

the meekness of power.

i need to learn.

totally,

by facing,

and not backing.

i wish i could run,

and not turn back,

like this chinese proverb Cat taught me when i was an angsty kid,

which i liked so much.

about rainbows and clouds,

about living, 

and leaving no carbon trace,

of the inorganic life, yet of isotopes of that element.

not as common as i want it be to.

boring, 

i rather.

sometimes.

more common than a commoner.

come on,

what's with being common?

not normally, 

but on the same ground.

at least not what that leaves me lying on the floor (T.F., 2008).

'we don't have anything in common' (Anon, n.d.).

complementary could be the other C,

but if 

only if i was more,

compassionate,

i would say,

but i am common,

'come on' (H.I.M.Y.M., date unknown).

it eats me inside out.

to be unable to accept,

the fact that you are like this.

...

i wish i was care-less,

of your careless words,

and say,

i REALLY don't care.

'cos i do.

trapped, like carajitos,

like that stain on that white tee,

conscious might do it.

conscious effort,

for a common ground.

in times, on time

how low? 

how long?

as low. as long. as i shall live.

is it?

ain't it?

can't it?

I am it.

for whom?

till when?

till then, for Him.

I will,

try.

i wont,

give.

down yes,

up no.

it can.

if not,

can it.

lost and insecure,

you found me.

i was lost and now FOUND.