a go.

She told me it was too much to bear

We sat quietly and motionless,

I ain't no one who can show i care,

It was a stormy night, cold and eerie,

The cats and dogs were unaware,

She told me it was too much to bear

I sipped my tea and read my book,

I looked as if i was cold,

I ain't no one who can show i care,

She sat there, silent and knitting,

The kitten was cuddling asleep,

She told me it was too much to bear,

The rain and storm made things worst,

The blankets and laundry was damp,

I ain't no one who can show i care,

The cottage was cosy and rosy,

Before reality and dreams began knotting,

She told me it was too much to bear,

I ain't no one who can show i care,

shall not

tell you what you do not want to hear,

let you know,

i am still who i am not

it is tough,

a nut,

shell the shell,

strip my pride,

pay the price,

i promise i wont cry,

but i cant smile,

i do not know,

maybe its meant for you,

but, i cant tell you,

what i think,

because i aint that noble,

i aint that nice,

its the thought that counts,

but i think the calculator does a better job,

dont count on me,

i will let you down,

i can pick up up,

i can help you stand,

but there is a but,

you dont need to know my stand,

you,

i cant,

i am in no position,

no footing,

no right,

left unheard,

i,

do 

not 

think

it 

counts,

like how it is swift,

the wind,

you know its there,

but, it cant speak for itself,

tell me when you are ready.

just click

i knew, i knew

I sat there, wondering.

I knew this day would come, Only better, 

Then it came creeping, bright sun, clouds and the lawn,  

It was surely, 

better that i thought it would, 

Then, 

came a surprise, 

just as i anticipated, 

of the unknown, 

but knowingly, 

as if people could be happier, 

i knew, i knew,  

It was it, 

Just what was missing, 

i cannot comprehend the possibilities, 

just like you told me you would.  

i doubt trust is reliable, 

i do not know, 

i am able, 

to be, 

what i thought i couldnt, 

it aint true,

this is where it all started.

when my ego matched my thoughts,

when what i did was exactly what i felt.

and i still aint

what you think you arent.